Still bored.

Again from tumblr, no source though. 100 questions answered, most oddly depressing

1. If there were one word which was automatically to your name in Google searches, which word would you want it to be? Preferably my surname, since that would mean I'd done something to make people look me up. Hopefully not because of a fellony though. 2. What is a goal that you recently met? I don't set a lot of goals for myself, so none really. 3. What is your favorite time of day? Early morning or early evening. Only in summer though. 4. Name a celebrity you find attractive. Jenna Coleman. 5. What is one of the best pieces of advice you have ever received? "Go outside your comfort zone." It was given on the topic of how I could improve my art. 6. What is the ultimate gesture of total trust? Lying on your back, displaying your tummy. This mainly applies to cats though. 7. What is the best compliment you have ever received? I'm not sure. 8. What is something you have changed your mind about? So many things. It's part of getting older, I gather. 9. What is something you’ve never changed your mind about? Evil is a human construct. 10. Rewrite the end of a fairy tale. I'd really rather not. 11. Choose one:you will never misunderstand the meaning of what someone else is saying OR nobody will ever misunderstand what you say. The latter, as it happens far more often. 12. If offered irreversible immortality, would you take it? Hell no. 13. In your opinion, what are the most important qualities of a good friend? Respect, understanding, kindness and a smidge of not-being-a-dick. 14. If you could be a founding member of a space colony, with the caveat that you would never be able to return to Earth, would you go? No. While I think space is amazing, I wouldn't want to live there. Not even if there was a zombie apocalypse, and I was next in line to have my brain eaten. 15. What is your favorite superpower? Why? A bit mainstream, but it's definately flight. A sense of total freedom, and all that jazz. 16. If you were a book, which book would you be? One were everyone you love dies. Preferably when they're at their most awesome. 17. If you found out that your life was a book, and you met your author, what would you say to them? Up yours. 18. How would you prefer to die? Quietly. 19. What is your favorite paradox? I'm not sure I have one. 20. Tell us five facts about your first love, or, if you haven’t had one yet, invent the story of meeting your first love. Apparantly my 'first love' happened when I was around three, and I remember nothing about the person in question. 21. If you could live anywhere for a year, where would you live? I don't know. London maybe? 22. If you could visit anywhere for a week, where would you go? Tokyo. 23. You can only read one genre of books for the rest of your life. Which genre do you read? Humour. 24. Define “love.” A feeling of complete comfortability when you're around the object of your affection. Also the nagging feeling that your life would feel too empty if that person went away. 25. Define “justice.” No. 26. Define “truth.” Facts. 27. Define “art.” Anything at any time. 28. Define “good.” A social construct depending entirely on the situation/object/person being defined as such. 29. Define “obscene.” See above. 30. What one thing in the world would be hardest for you to give up? What little freedom I have. 31. What is one thing you regret? I regret regretting anything at all. 32. What is something that you have done that you are proud of? Survived for 30+ years. 33. Is it easier to talk or to listen? Listening. 34. When are you vulnerable? Constantly. I'm not especially stable. 35. If you met God, what would you say to God? Well I'll be damned. 36. Would it be harder to tell someone you loved them if you weren’t sure how they would respond, or have to tell someone that you didn’t love them back? Both options would be awful. 37. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you? My mum, probably. 38. What is your worst quality? I can be a bit of a coward. Have an overactive sense of self-preservation. 39. What is your best quality? I always try looking at the bright side of things. 40. What is your most immediately noticeable quality? I'm overweight. It's really hard to miss. 41. What is the first thing you notice about other people? What mood they're in. 42. Describe one of your closest friends, and explain why that person is such a close friend. I don't really have any. Too many trust issues on my part. 43. What happened in the last dream you remember? I was cuddling with my now deceased cat, who was alive and well in the dream. 44. What was your most memorable dream? Meeting, hugging and saying goodbye to a friend that had just died. 45. Two truths and a lie. The sun is hot, water is wet, and I love liqorice. 46. If you were having a baby with the love of your life, and they insisted that the child be named after a place, what would you name your child? I wouldn't. 47. What is the last lie you told? 'I'm okay'. 48. Is it possible for you to love someone you don’t trust? No. 49. What motivates you most? Good weather. 50. What is your favorite narrative trope? Pretty much anything but love triangles. They make me want to punch someone. Preferably the author. 51. Describe the ultimate dystopia. No. 52. What story (book, movie, game, etc.) have you learned the most from? None? I take notes from experience, not fiction. 53. What is something you wish other people could know about you without you having to tell them? That I'm effing fragile, so please tread lightly. 54. Describe a moment you experienced something unexpectedly beautiful. When I found out that I'd sold three of my art pieces. Being paid for something I'd made almost brought me to tears. 55. What is the biggest challenge you face when trying to form relationships with people? Talking to them. 56. How close do you think your perception of yourself is to how other people perceive you? Apparantly not very close at all. 57. What is something you used to be afraid of, but aren’t anymore? The dark. 58. What is the most important emotion? Happiness. 59. Do you think humans are any different than very advanced organic robots? If so, how? Er, whaaa...? 60. If you had to move somewhere else, what would you miss most from where you are now? Everything. 61. If you were a videogame character, what would your iconic weapon be? Something ranged. I'm awful at close combat. 62. What is an aspect of your personality now that would come as a surprise to your younger self? Nothing much. 63. If you could eliminate one event from the last month, which event would it be? Nothing, actually. 64. If you had to forget the entire last year except for one 24 hour period, which day would you chose to remember? (Other people would remember, and you would have anything you wrote down or recorded during that time period - you would just have a form of amnesia.) The day I found out my estranged paternal grandfather had died, and that the inheritance will be rather a big one. That was a good day. 65. What is the most upsetting thing anyone has ever said to you? 'Are you going to kill yourself? Do you want some help with that?' 66. If you had to pick only one ideal or cause to work toward, what would it be? Not a clue. 67. Are there any unforgivable actions? What are they? Hurting other beings. Especially children and animals. 68. Under what circumstances is keeping information secret acceptable or morally required? Depends, really. 69. What is one of your favorite ways to relax? Taking a shower. 70. What is something you find difficult to talk about, even though you know you should? Nothing I can think of. 71. What is an easy, default topic of conversation? The weather. 72. What is your favorite sort of conversation? I really don't know. 73. What is a version of you in an alternate reality doing right now? Whatever she wants to. 74. What was the last adorable thing you saw? My cat, begging for cuddles. 75. Would you prefer for people to hate you or for people to be completely indifferent to you? Indifference is nice. 76. Would you prefer to be yelled at or ignored? Ignored. Raised voices give me anxiety. 77. What is your favorite word and why? Banana. It's very versatile XP 78. What is your dream job? Illustrator/toy designer. 79. What is the most difficult thing you’ve done this month? Nothing's been more difficult than usual this month, so yay. 80. When was the last time you were really scared? Few days ago when some right bastard set of a huge firecracker out in the park behind our building. Sounded like a gunshot, nearly weed myself. 81. What do you want most? To not be a burden. 82. Describe an ideal day. Nice wheather, nothing to do but draw. 83. If you could speak to any real (non-fictional) person, living or dead for one hour, who would it be? 84. In general, are you happy with the person you have become? Pretty happy. Could have been worse. 85. Do you want to be a parent? A world of no. 86. What is something unusual about you that not a lot of people know? I have arthritis in exactly one joint so far, and it happens to be my left big toe. 87. What makes you you? Me. I make me me. 88. Are you lonelier when you’re with people or when you’re alone? Either or neither. Depends on my mood. 89. What makes you feel safe? Four walls around me, and the door locked from the inside. Also, my OH. 90. What was the last bad decision you made? Eating a thai ginger-sweetie. I get nauseous just smelling ginger now. 91. Who is someone you have utmost respect for, and what is it about that person that makes you esteem them so highly? No one I can think of right now. 92. What was the last thing you laughed uncontrollably at? Something on '2 broke girls' made the OH do a full body cringe, and it was the best reaction I'dever seen someone have. I almost passed out I laughed so hard. 93. Your friend tells you that they are suicidal, and asks you not to tell anyone. Is it more of a betrayal to tell someone, or to keep silent? There is no good answer to this question, so I won't give one. 94. What song speaks to you most? Why? I have no idea. 95. What basic values or principles do you turn to when faced with moral dilemmas? I'm not prone to finding myself in moral dilemmas. 96. If you had a tagline, what would it be? 97. If applicable, what do you look for in a romantic partner? A complete lack of romantic notions. I'm not the soppy type. Thankfully, neither is he. 98. Who is your favorite author? Sir Terry Pratchett. 99. Who is the one person you know who is most similar to you (in terms of personality, beliefs, attitudes, mannerisms, etc)? My OH and this one kid I know. 100. What are you most excited about right now? My packages arriving from Japan.